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Friday, December 18, 2009

Ugh Frustration!

I am really looking forward to this year being done with!  All anyone wants to think about is how good they can be in order to get a gift!  What happened to the true meaning of Christmas?  I mean I know that there are those out there that don't believe in Christ-and that is their choice, but come on!  The only reason people are nice this time of year is because they want to feel better about themselves?  Or because they want a nice gift?  How is it that everyone is out for themselves?  What is wrong here?
Or how about being asked to take something off of your emails and when you ask why, you are treated so rudely!  I belong to several groups on yahoo, some are for parents of children with disabilities and some are for graphics....only one has had an issue about me having my Avon site addy at the end of my emails...and it isn't because I am trying to solicite anything....it is in my settings so that it is on all my emails that I send out.  When you have a business or you work as an independent rep as I do, you want your name out there and you want others to see.  Everyone has their own things posted at the bottoms of emails-what makes mine any less right to be there.  Anyway so when I ask what the issue is, because I want to know...I don't understand why- I get told I am acting like and 8th grader, I don't listen and that I am childish?  What, wait-how is that again?
Basically this email from the list owner was so down right rude I had to honestly control myself from saying something I was going to regret.  Than went on to accuse me of insinutating stuff about him and his business (which I did none of) and how my typed message of  "Everyday is a blessing, Praise Him for is" is a hypocracy because of my insiuations!  What the heck?  How? And when did I ever insinuate anything?  I am so tired of rude people.  I am so tired of what this world has become!  If you don't like my message than delete it...but I have as much right as everyone else to have whatever I want on my emails....I never once seen a rule against it and if there is, than that is infringing on my freedom of speech, isn't it?  How do you justify being so rude to me and calling me stupid when I just asked a simple question because I didn't understand why you had an issue?  Is it really that okay to be so rude to someone?  Where did our morals and etiquette go in this world?  Again fine if you don't believe in God, but I do and I have as much right to talk about him, share my praises about him and misnister just as much as those who hate him have the right to voice their hatred for him.  How is it that Christians are not able to even mention God without some non christian coming up to us and say we are shoving him down their throats....wait what are you doing when you take it to court and have it removed from places and things....it is our right to see it and say it just as much as it is your right to not.  Why is everyone catering to the needs of everyone else in the world but when someone starts talking about Christ, we are being so inconsiderate of others feelings?  What about my feelings?  What about what I believe?  Why is it wrong for me to voice that and say how I feel?  Because you are offended?  Well maybe I am offended that you have the feelings you have...does that give me the right to tell you how to feel and what you can and can't say or do in your home or in public?  How am I hurting you by talking about my belief in Christ?  It is sad when it is more acceptable for pedofiles, murderers and thieves can do and say what they please more than a person who believes in Christ and tries to live a Godly life!....How sad has our world really become?

Saturday, November 21, 2009

Bible Verses and Devotionals....

I know this is the 3rd time posting today, but hey....

So I am in the mood to type and really didn't have much to say in other areas so I thought why not post some bible verses and such that I have come across that I liked.

Some read the bible to learn and some read it to hear from heaven- Read Psalms 119:33

Like clay in the hand of the Potter, so are you in my hand O house of Israel-Jeremiah 18:6

We must be child like before God- Proverbs 11:5

Jesus taught that perseverance is the essential element in Prayer- Luke 21:36

If Christians had ever been brave enough to make Christ alive, Nobody would now be saying that Christianity is dead- Winifred Kirkland

Jesus was the perfect reflection of God's nature in every situation He encountered during His time here on earth- John 6:35

The greatest power that God has given to any individual is the power of Prayer- James 5:16

Call up God.  Prayer itself can difuse fear- read Romans 8:26

We cannot hope to reach Christian maturity in anyway other than by yielding ourselves utterly and willingly to His mighty working.  Read 1 Corinthians 13:11

Wisdom is the God given ability to see life with rare objectivity and to handle life with rare stability.  Read James 1:5

Be an example to all believers...
In what you teach,
In the way you live,
In your love, your faith
and your purity.   1 Timothy 4:12

Prosperity is not without many fears and distastes, adversity not without many comforts and hopes.  Read Psalms 62:10

I write unto you, little children, because your sins are forgiven you for his names sake.  1 John 2:12

May we not only be delivered from the outward act or word that grieves Thee, but may the very springs of our nature be purified   Fredrick Brotherton (F.B.) Meyer

Let your faith in Christ be in the quiet confidence that He will keep you as the apple of His eye in peace and perfectness and that His light will shine through you.  3 Samuel 32:2-3

The bible says that being a Christian is not only a great way to die, but its also the best way to live.  Read 1 Corinthians 7:17

But what does it say?  The word is near you, in your mouth and in your heart-that is, the word of faith which we are preaching, that if you confess with your mouth Jesus as Lord, and believe in your heart that God raised Him from t he dead, you shall be saved, for who with the heart man believes, resulting in righteousness, and with the mouth he confesses, resulting in salvation.  Romans 10:8-10

Dont have Jesus Christ on your lips and the world in your hearts.  Read 1 John 2:15

It is comfortable to know that we are responsible to God and not to man.  It is a small matter to be judged of mans judgment.  Read 2 Corinthians 5:9-10

But someone may say, "you have faith and I have works; show me the faith without works and I will show you my Faith by my works."  James 2:18

So all this was done that it might be fulfilled which was spoken by the Lord through the prophet, saying Behold the virgin shall be with child, and bear a Son, and they shall call His name Immanuel.  Matthew 1:22-23

We will always experience regret when we lie for the moment and do not weigh our words and deeds before we give them life.  Read Proverbs 16:2

But grow in grace, and in the Knowledge of our Lord and Savior Jesus Christ.  To Him be glory both now and forever. Amen.  2Peter 3:18

Hear, O Lord, when I cry with my voice: have mercy also upon me, and answer me...Hid not thy face far from me; put not thy servant away in anger-thou hast been my help; leave me not, neither forsake me, O God of my salvation.  When my father and my mother forsake me then the Lord will take me up.  Psalm 27:7, 9-10

God gives the calmness and serenity of heart and soul.  2 Corinthians 7:6

What is your focus today?  Joy comes when it is Jesus first, others second...then you.  Read Galatians 6:2

Jesus Christ is the 1st and the last.  The author and finisher, beginning and the end, alpha and omega and by Him all other things hold together.  He must be first or nothing.  God never comes next.  Read Matthew 6:33

How can you possess the miseries of envy when you possess in Christ the best of all portions?  Read Romans 13:13

For thus saith the Lord God; Behold I, even I, will both search my sheep and seek them out.  Ezekiel 34:11

We know that we live in him and he in us, because he has given us of his spirit.  1 John 4:13

My mouth is filled with your praise, declaring your splendor all day long.  Psalm 71:8

Friday, November 20, 2009

Welcome To Holland !

WELCOME TO HOLLAND

by Emily Perl Kingsley. c1987 by Emily Perl Kingsley. All rights reserved
I am often asked to describe the experience of raising a child with a disability - to try to help people who have not shared that unique experience to understand it, to imagine how it would feel. It's like this......
When you're going to have a baby, it's like planning a fabulous vacation trip - to Italy. You buy a bunch of guide books and make your wonderful plans. The Coliseum. The Michelangelo David. The gondolas in Venice. You may learn some handy phrases in Italian. It's all very exciting.
After months of eager anticipation, the day finally arrives. You pack your bags and off you go. Several hours later, the plane lands. The stewardess comes in and says, "Welcome to Holland."
"Holland?!?" you say. "What do you mean Holland?? I signed up for Italy! I'm supposed to be in Italy. All my life I've dreamed of going to Italy."
But there's been a change in the flight plan. They've landed in Holland and there you must stay.
The important thing is that they haven't taken you to a horrible, disgusting, filthy place, full of pestilence, famine and disease. It's just a different place.
So you must go out and buy new guide books. And you must learn a whole new language. And you will meet a whole new group of people you would never have met.
It's just a different place. It's slower-paced than Italy, less flashy than Italy. But after you've been there for a while and you catch your breath, you look around.... and you begin to notice that Holland has windmills....and Holland has tulips. Holland even has Rembrandts.
But everyone you know is busy coming and going from Italy... and they're all bragging about what a wonderful time they had there. And for the rest of your life, you will say "Yes, that's where I was supposed to go. That's what I had planned."
And the pain of that will never, ever, ever, ever go away... because the loss of that dream is a very very significant loss.
But... if you spend your life mourning the fact that you didn't get to Italy, you may never be free to enjoy the very special, the very lovely things ... about Holland.

Autism Holiday Letter

Dear Friends and Family" was written for the purpose of it being sent to relatives and hosts of holiday gatherings that might need a crash course in what to expect from their guest with autism.  Article reprinted by permission of editor/author, Viki Gayhardt.]

Dear Friends and Family,
      I understand that we will be visiting each other for the holidays this year!  Sometimes these visits can be very hard for me, but here is some information that might help our visit to be more successful.
      As you probably know, I am challenged by a hidden disability called autism or what some people refer to as a pervasive developmental disorder (PDD).  Autism/PDD is a neurodevelopmental disorder, which makes it hard for me to understand the environment around me.  I have barriers in my brain that you can't see but which make it difficult for me to adapt to my surroundings.
      Sometimes I may seem rude and abrupt, but it is only because I have to try so hard to understand people and at the same time, make myself understood. People with autism have different abilities: some may not speak, some write beautiful poetry, others are whizzes in math (Albert Einstein was thought to be autistic), or have difficulty making friends. We are all different and need various degrees of support.
      Sometimes when I am touched unexpectedly, it might feel painful and make me want to run away.  I get easily frustrated, too.  Being with lots of other people is like standing next to a moving freight train and trying to decide how and when to jump aboard.  I feel frightened and confused a lot of the time, like you would if you landed on an alien planet and didn't understand how the inhabitants communicated. This is why I need to have things the same as much as possible.  Once I learn how things happen, I can get by ok.  But if something, anything changes, then I have to relearn the situation all over again!  It is very hard.
      When you try to talk to me, I often can't understand what you say because there is a lot of distraction around.  I have to concentrate very hard to hear and understand one thing at a time.
      You might think I am ignoring you--I am not.  Rather, I am hearing everything and not knowing what is most important to respond to.  Holidays are exceptionally hard because there are so many different people, places and things going on that are out of my ordinary realm.  This may be fun and adventurous for most people, but for me, it's very hard work and can be extremely stressful.
      I often have to get away from all the commotion to calm down.  It would be great if you had a private place set up to where I could retreat.
      If I cannot sit at the meal table, do not think I am misbehaved or that my parents have no control over me. Sitting in one place for even 5 minutes is often impossible for me.  I feel so antsy and overwhelmed by all the smells, sounds, and people--I just have to get up and move about. Please don't hold up your meal for me--go on without me and my parent's will handle the situation the best way they know.
      Eating in general is hard for me.  If you understand that autism is a sensory processing disorder, it's no wonder eating is a problem!  Think of all the senses involved with eating: sight, smell, taste, touch AND all the complicated mechanics that are involved with chewing and swallowing that a lot of people with autism have trouble with.  I am not being picky--I literally cannot eat certain foods, as my sensory system and/or oral motor coordination are impaired.
      Don't be disappointed if mommy hasn't dressed me in starch and bows. It's because she knows how much stiff and frilly clothes can drive me buggy! I have to feel comfortable in my clothes or I will just be miserable! Temple Grandin, a very smart adult with autism, has taught people that when she had to wear stiff petticoats as a child, she felt like her skin was being rubbed with sandpaper.  I often feel the same way in dressy clothes.
      When I go to someone else's house, I may appear bossy and controlling. In a sense, I am being controlling because that is how I try to fit into the world around me (which is so hard to figure out!) Things have to be done in a way I am familiar with or else I might get confused and frustrated.  It doesn't mean you have to change the way you are doing things--just please be patient with me and understanding of how I have to cope...mom and dad have no control over how my autism makes me feel inside.
      People with autism often have little things that they do to help themselves feel more comfortable. The grownups call it "Self regulation," or "stimming'.  I might rock, hum, flick my fingers in my face, flap my arms or any number of different things.  I am not trying to be disruptive or weird.  Again, I am doing what I have to do for my brain to adapt to your world.
      Sometimes I cannot stop myself from talking, singing, or partaking in an activity.  The grownups call this "perseverating" which is kind of like self-regulation or stimming. I do this only because I have found something to occupy myself that makes me feel comfortable, and I don't want to come out of that comfortable place and join your hard-to-figure-out-world. Perseverative behaviors are good to a certain degree because they help me calm down.  Please be respectful to my mom and dad if they let me "stim" for a while, as they know me best and what helps to calm me.
      Remember that my mom and dad have to watch me much more closely than the average child.  This is for my own safety, preservation of your possessions, and to facilitate my integration with you tippies (what we autistics fondly call you neurotypical folk!)  It hurts my parents' feelings to be criticized for being over protective or condemned for not watching me close enough.  They are human and have been given an assignment intended for saints.  My parents are good people and need your support.
      Holidays are filled with sights, Sounds, and smells.  The average household is turned into a busy, frantic, festive place.  Remember that this may be fun for you tippies but it's very hard work for me to conform.  If I fall apart or act out in a way that you consider socially inappropriate, please remember that I don't possess the neurological system that is required to follow tippy rules.
      I am a unique person--an interesting person.  I will find my place at this celebration that is comfortable for us all as long as you'll try to view the world through my eyes!

Bless My Feet!

 Something I found in an email!



Bless my feet
My soles and toes
Point them straight
Where I must go

Bless my legs, Lord
Bless my legs
Make them strong
To do their best

Bless my spine, Lord
Bless my spine
Flexible and straight
And fine

Bless my arms
Long and limber
Stretch them, bend them
And remember...

To Bless my hands
Please bless my hands
Reaching, doing,
Helping hands

Bless my mouth, Lord
Bless my words
Make them loving
Helpful, heard

Bless my eyes, Lord
Help me see
What You want
Priorities

Bless my belly
To not quite full
Not too much
Just enough fuel

To do Your work
Every day
I've come to know
This is the Way

Bless my heart, Lord
Hold it close
Keep it humble
Never to boast

Bless my brain
Please bless my brain
That in Your wisdom
I'll remain

Bless me, Lord
From head to toe
It's by Your Grace
I'm good to go.

"He will guard the feet of his saints...."
                       1 Samuel 2:9
Virginia Santoro
(Copyright 2005 ~ All Rights Reserved)
Morning Musings Web Page

Ugh! Now Eating Paper? WTH?

So my oldest who is 9, is eating paper in class to get out of doing class work!  Isn't that just lovely?  Wonder what that is all about.  Found out at conferences that in the middle of class he just gets up and goes to the bathroom, and the teacher ends up having to send someone to go get him, because he is trying to get out of doing work....This is happening more than once a day.  Not sure what that is about either.  Ideas would be wonderful here, since I am at a loss!

My 8 year old has to go to the dentist next week because somehow he has broken a tooth in the way back of his mouth and has a very bad cavity in it....Yay, bring a classic autistic to the dentist-this should be a fun time!

Tired of the Internet Police!

So I figure that since I am constantly getting policed on what I post on facebook, that I am just going to start blogging here.  This way I can write what I want and if someone doesn't like it they don't have to come to my blog and read it!  Most of my rantings are about my ex- and it is only because he gives me something to rant about....lol.  Anyway Other times I will blog about my kids, cause they are my life!  

If you don't want to read my blog, please don't subscribe to it.  I am not looking for sympathy, or for anyones advice.  I just want to be able to vent, just like anyone else.