As I sit here in my house with 2 of my 3 boys (the oldest is at Nana's) I wonder if I was really cut out for this job. I mean seriously.....those who know me know my patience level has always been slim to zip and that when it comes to being irritated really easily-I am the poster child for losing my mind. But here I am, single mom to 3 wonderful, autistic boys. I can't say that I would want to change too much of my life, although I think that I would get rid of the last 3 years with a so called Mr. Ick, but I would like to meet the fool who somehow created Autism! I know my life is more enriched, no seriously it is-I have learned more from my 3 autistic sons than I have ever learned from any neuro-typical child I have ever been in contact with, and entertainment is always in abundance here, no need to buy tickets to any comedy show....I have my own, and sometimes they are a heck of a lot funnier than any stand up comic out there. My boys are handsome, smart, silly, and just the greatest kids ever, but there are a few things I would like to kind of change or tone down a bit it possible (hey we can all dream). First of all-Stimming....seriously I can guarantee you that my middle son has taken about 3000 laps if not more around my house in his lifetime....this is not including the outside of the house or the thousands of hours a summer he spends on the Trampoline. Normally it doesn't get to me, but when you have days where there isn't anything to do, because it is raining or snowing or someone is sick.....than you want to gorilla glue his feet to the floor in hopes that he will sit in one spot long enough for you to get one thing done. Along with the endless stimming we have the endless munching (this is about the only thing they get from me....course the rest of their genetic makeup is from their dad-which I will be honest, isn't all bad....) I swear I am buying at least 100 to 200 worth in groceries each time I go and I go at least 2 times a month....I feel like no sooner do I get food than it is gone again....Ugh and they aren't even teenagers yet! Than you have the constant birage of 1 TV going with something (Spongebob, Wonder Pets, Dinosaurs, Stitch, Scooby Doo and so forth) while the other TV is going at the same time and is usually on Nick Jr.....and don't forget about the oldest child who either watches some Pokeman, Bakugan, or some other Japanese Anime show (Thank you James) or he has stationed himself on his computer.....At any given time you can walk into my house and find at least 2 TV's and 2 computers going at a one time! Welcome to the wonderful world of technology....had my kids been born back before any of this was around-Oh I think they would have done put me in a straight jacket in a rubber room somewhere...as a matter of fact I am positive that is what would be the case. My only reprieve, other than the wonderful and awesome staff that work with my kids, is Wed. nights for karaoke and sometimes Sat. nights as well.....I am beginning to think that I am going to pretend that I have a job outside of the house just so I can get a vacation....
Yes I know, that is crazy talk and someone would surely bust me out! By the end of the day I am ready to crawl under a rock and not return until next week....It's not going to work, but it is a very wonderful fantasy....course so is taking off in my vehicle and just driving til the gas runs out....but than I would miss my kids, miss my circus of a household and probably go insain from too much silence!!!!!!!!
Lets face it....if my life was anything less than it is now, I think I would be one of those people that has to create drama just so I can have something to do....lol.
